LOL - the new word for scarcasm !

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" Let it. I don't understand why I'm not dead. When your heart breaks, you should die. But there's still the rest of you. There's your breasts and your genitals... They're amazingly stupid, like babies or faithful dogs. They don't get it, they just want him. Want him." - Harper Pitt (Angels in America)

Again a re-run of this mini-series on late dateless Saturday night, and a sudden dash of one-liner mail "How are you doing?"said in one of those long drawn monotonous and utterly boring voice patterns to one of my exs. The reply I assumed would not be a reply but it was better than I expected - my Inbox blinked ! Staring bluntly at my sleep-devoid face. Not realizing that it would be late afternoon on other side of darkness and assuming that elliptical blob of water doesn't spin and dateless Saturday night is not some global phenomenon, I clicked on the highlighted T-zone. The response was morose with a bit of anger and a dash of amazing sarcasm in a full paragraph. I mean what kind of retard response was that, I wondered for a minute. I asked about the weather conditions in Houston and I get why the relationship went sour. Its like chocolate filled with rum. You hate chocolate and you despise rum fillet. Well, I loved the both and so my response was alluring and simple !
Imagine how would you feel when someone replies as "lol" to one of your so-thought-vibrant sarcasm ! Infuriating. Hell no, its amazingly humiliating and kind of a will-show-how-smart-are-you-than-a-fifth-grader!
Well, I did exactly that and typed in "lol" as a subject line ! Period... a long one on that.
After that, as I relaxed with self-satisfied ego for outdoing someones sarcasm with mine deeply inundated yet shallow lack of understanding of someones outburst, I dialed some ten random numbers, pinged some ten random friends online and cried fish for a foul. Only to realize what A. had told me some 11 years back.

"I always tell you about human psychology, of pretending superiority by feigning rudeness."

I poured in some hot chocolate and relaxed back on my beanie and pondered. I smelled the rains and looked outside the window, only to realize daggered darkness eloping with big droplets in solitary confinement. Life- they say is weird. That night was like that. Those raindrops were like that. I wanted to soak myself in that surreal darkness but I wasn't able to. The thought of getting wet and catching cold was constraining enough to make me realize the surrealism of reality. I stood by the window and watched it. After couple of hours, there was muted silence.

I guess it had answered to my unresolved constraints ! And I guess that is what makes me Human.. well a rude one at that ! Or for so I assume-to-be-or-pretend-to-be !

When your heart breaks, you should die. But there's still the rest of you. Your sarcasm, perhaps !!??